a friend of mine posted on my facebook wall today.
she posted a quote, and when i began reading it, i thought that she was posting it in motivation - i have been (in all honesty) struggling with the big move, finding an apartment, and finding a job. not so muh the strugle itself - the tangible things. i'm sure an apartment will come (we've only been looking a week), and i'm sure a job will come soon enough as well.
it was a quote i had written myself. according to her, i had written it 5 years ago, and i had referred to visiting vancouver. i needed to know. i needed to see for myself.
sure enough.... one of my first entries was in regards to starting my full time job. my full time office job, right after school.
"we start to question our every actions: am i making the right decision? am i selling out? am i forgetting where i came from? where will i be in 5 years? how will i know when to move on?
that questioning takes a toll on a persons confidence - not only in themselves, but in everything they think they knew.... life throws things at you. you duck, dodge, etc. i think i've managed to be hit square in the jaw."and my worries, about not being able to have time to visit vancouver.
i guess, sometimes, we all just need a bit of reassurance. even if that comes from ourselves.
she posted a quote, and when i began reading it, i thought that she was posting it in motivation - i have been (in all honesty) struggling with the big move, finding an apartment, and finding a job. not so muh the strugle itself - the tangible things. i'm sure an apartment will come (we've only been looking a week), and i'm sure a job will come soon enough as well.
it's the other things. the distance, the uncertainty, the self doubt (the enemy).
so i started reading this quote. and then she wrote: "you wrote that (ironically) 5 years ago. two weeks before this, you were worried you were always going to have to ask for time off so you could visit... vancouver. living the dream! :) xo"it was a quote i had written myself. according to her, i had written it 5 years ago, and i had referred to visiting vancouver. i needed to know. i needed to see for myself.
arriving in vancouver (photo by me)
sure enough.... one of my first entries was in regards to starting my full time job. my full time office job, right after school.
"we start to question our every actions: am i making the right decision? am i selling out? am i forgetting where i came from? where will i be in 5 years? how will i know when to move on?
that questioning takes a toll on a persons confidence - not only in themselves, but in everything they think they knew.... life throws things at you. you duck, dodge, etc. i think i've managed to be hit square in the jaw."and my worries, about not being able to have time to visit vancouver.
i guess, sometimes, we all just need a bit of reassurance. even if that comes from ourselves.